Perfection is weird.
Outside the context of God and His ways, it doesn’t exist.
People need us. Before we get it all together.
Before we have it all figured out.
Before we have 100% of all our checklists done.
When we look up at the sky and shake our fists at God with gritted teeth, “What do you mean?”
God, what do you mean?
What are you doing to me?
Just. Say. Something.
Weakness, most would say, is the biggest enemy of perfection.
In the story of Jesus feeding the five thousand, Andrew said something profound. Something very human. Something that happens in our minds and critic’s minds everyday.
There are five thousand people excited that Jesus has arrived. There are no microphones. Just screaming. They are all hungry. Jesus asks, “Where can we go get some food for these people?” But it was just a test on the disciple’s faith. He knew where the food was going to come from.
Jesus mentions the only food that is available. One boy’s lunch. Just one little boy’s sacrifice. At this mention, the disciples laugh in the face of Jesus – whether is was internal of external.
This is what Andrew says.
“There is a boy here who has five barley loaves and two fish, but what are they for so many?”
But then Jesus transformed those five barley loaves and two fish into more than enough nourishment for five thousand people.
They had to figure out what to do with all the leftovers.
Here’s the thing: People are going to come into your life, or your own insecurities are going to whisper things into your ear like, “Yeah, so you have this spiritual gift. But what is your word of encouragement or dinner party or intercession when there are so many people to love? So many people who you don’t even know that are left out?”
“Yeah, so you’re struggling with this area of your life, and you’re anxious, but what is it when so many people are suffering more than you?”
“Yeah, you like to encourage people, but what is that when you never have the right words to say?”
The lists go on of doubts and worry.
But if you invite Jesus to the scene (He’s there already), He already knows what He’s going to do with your gifts and your surrendered life.
Because when Jesus comes to you, He sees your worry and already knows where Your provision is going to come from.
There is going to be leftovers when we stop focusing on how little we have. There is going to be more than enough when we start focusing on how Jesus multiplies loaves of bread and in the same way, can multiply our love.
There is going to be plenty when we just start loving people with no prerequisites.
Jesus is going to start multiplying when we acknowledge our situation and believe that He is present inside of it. When we stop having panic attacks every time we have a question and just let Him sit with us in that question.
So, on this Monday, this is what I want to say to you.
When you feel like you’re already behind on a brand new week.
When you might be worried about every area of your life.
When you feel like you don’t have something to offer the world, your church, your community, your family, and your friends until you sweep away every trace of darkness and weakness in your life and have enough food to feed them all (that’s a lie):
Don’t let the world ask, “But what are you?” Because despite the bullies, and the feelings of unworthiness, and underneath all of your fake reality: there is a beautiful person worth knowing. I know you don’t feel like you’re enough. But Jesus creates more than enough. You and your little gifts — they matter. You and your little gifts mean everything to the people growing up alongside you and behind you. Don’t let the words of the unwise people in your life defeat God’s own Word in your heart.
It’s okay to wrestle with God and to struggle with sin. You’re human. You are going to mess up. You’re free to struggle. You’re free to make changes in your life, but you’re not free to give up serving in the little things. You’re free to work towards sanctification and faithfulness.
You are free to give up perfection until He comes to wipe your tears and clothe you in white.
But you are not free to give up.
Because there will be fulfillment in Christ’s words and leftovers on the other side of worry and sacrifice.
There will be more than enough.